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Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Sinbad's Last Voyage by Toni Sweeney




CHAPTER ONE

Indian George kicked the big sorrel into a grudging gallop. The animal was old and fat and didn’t like to run, much less travel along a mud-rutted dirt road. A slow, drag-hoofed amble was its preferred speed. He should have taken the Jeep. It was rusty and antiquated, but it would have gotten him to his destination quicker. Like most Naturals, however, George never used the vehicle if he could keep from doing so.

The Jeep was for long distances and emergencies, and while this was an emergency, the Talltrees’ farm was next door to his and the sorrel could take the road much easier than an ancient contraption like George’s automobile, with its primitive internal combustion engine. Its wheels—that actually touched the ground—would hit every pothole and dip in sight.

He gave the sorrel’s withers a slap with his hand. “Git, you nag! Or it’s the processing plant for you.”

The sorrel didn’t move a bit faster, as if aware that horses were an Endangered Domestic Species and knew it was totally safe.

Only an hour earlier, George had heard of Tran’s arrest. In the three days since an Albegensian warship had fired upon a Terran deep-space freighter, blasting it to micro-particles with all hands on board, all Albegensi in Earth residence were being taken into custody and detained for questioning in accordance with Standard Procedure in times of Global Martial Emergency. Tran had been one of the unfortunates.

George was old enough to have lived through two wars between Earth and its neighbors and he was aware of what might happen to Tran now, and he knew none of it would be pleasant. At the moment, however, his concern was for the welfare of Tran’s wife and son who were alone at the farm.

He turned the sorrel’s head, guiding it through the gate, and pulled it to a stiff-legged and grateful halt in front of the house. The animal snorted and stretched its neck against the reins, attempting to reach the short grass growing in the front yard, to make up for the meal it had been forced to miss by taking its owner on this sudden trip.

The Talltrees’ home was a small wooden building, every plank and nail placed by hand over 100 years before by Ramon Talltrees, great-grandfather of Tran’s wife, Andrea. Like the other inhabitants of the Valley, Ramon had been a Natural, choosing to live as his ancestors had centuries before, with as few contemporary conveniences—and their accompanying pollution—as possible.

On the top step of the porch sat a boy, arms resting against his knees. He was slim and dark. At first glance, he might have been mistaken for one of George’s people, but the blue-black sheen to his braided hair as well as the slight slant to his brown eyes marked him as Albegensi—Tran’s 14-year-old son, Acashi, suddenly finding himself head of the house and in charge of the farm. He didn’t look up as George scrambled off the sorrel’s back and dropped the reins, but stared listlessly across the field beyond the fence.

Leaving the sorrel munching on Andrea’s daisies, George looked up at the boy. “Cash?”

He had to call twice before Cash turned from his contemplation of the field. There was a hopelessness in the young face that made the old man want to cry.

“Where’s your mother?”

“She’s inside,” the boy said, gesturing behind him. As George started up the steps, he reached out and caught the old man’s arm. “I’m worried about her. She hasn’t eaten since they took Dad away.” He was holding an oak leaf, and began to shred it into strips as he spoke. “She just sits there. I practically had to carry her upstairs to sleep.” He threw the pieces of leaf to the ground and looked across the field again, tears in the voice but they wouldn’t show in the eyes. Tran’s son wouldn’t allow that. “I-I’m scared. I’ve lost Dad--I don’t want to lose her, too.”

The old man patted the boy’s shoulder and went through the front door. Though the Naturals’ teachings allowed the use of electricity, it was not the solar power utilized by the rest of the world, but the hydroelectric kind supplied by a small generating plant set on the falls of the river that wandered through the Valley. Fuel lamps were the usual mode of illumination, although no one had turned on the lights. It was so dim inside George thought the room was empty. Then, he saw Andi, sitting beside the fireplace.

The room was cold for an April day, but no fire had been laid. She was in the old rocker—handmade, like the rest of the furniture—staring into the emptiness of the hearth. She didn’t look up as George came in, didn’t even acknowledge his presence. Huddled in the rocker, hands clutched against her chest, she sat blank-eyed, like someone’s ancient grandmother. Only one hand moved, twisting her wedding ring around her finger. She was wearing a sweater, a long skirt, and knee-high suede boots—all handmade, all products of the farm. Her hair, thick and honey-yellow, hung in a single braid over one shoulder.

Seeing her tear-stained blondness, George once again marveled that she was mother to the dark-haired, dark-eyed child who sat on the front steps. She looks so young, he thought. Like Cash’s older sister, not his mother.

“Andi?”

She didn’t move, but when he got nearer, she spoke in a low monotone.

“They took him away, George. Arrested him on ‘suspicion’—what does that mean? Suspicion of what?” When she looked at the old Navajo, her eyes were bleak with despair, lashes wet with the tears that Cash wouldn’t shed. “How could they think Tran’s a spy? It’s preposterous!” She shook her head and turned to stare at the hearth again.

“Come on.” George put his arms around her, pulling her to her feet.

“Where are we going?” she asked, mildly protesting being moved, and clutched at his hands for support.

“To the kitchen.” He steered her through the open doorway at the back of the room and pushed her toward the trestle table. “Cash says you haven’t eaten. That isn’t going to do anyone any good.”

She sat at the table while he put the kettle on to boil. Luckily, Cash had stoked the cast-iron stove earlier, and it was still hot. George added another log and turned to look at Andi. She was pale, as dazed as someone abandoned, and he didn’t like it. The Andi he knew was a feisty little thing, who could lick all of her 110 pounds in wildcats, and took no guff from anyone. This docile, apathetic creature was totally unlike her. She was in shock, he decided. Turning back to the table, he pulled out a chair and sat down.

“What will you do, Andi?” he asked, thinking frantically of something to say, anything to get her talking and take that lost look from her face.

“Do? I…” She looked across the table at him. “George, I don’t know. What can I do?” She made a vague gesture with one hand. “If I knew where Tran was taken, maybe I could petition the local headquarters, get affidavits from our neighbors saying he’s no spy, somehow get him released, but I don’t even know where he is.”

George had a good idea where Tran was, but he hated to tell her. He also knew she had little chance of freeing her husband on the strength of some names written on a paper, even if she was lucky enough to find anyone unafraid of signing it. Only two times in the past 300 years had the United Terran Federation relinquished a prisoner because of public demand.

“He’s probably been taken to an intern camp, and if that’s so, you may never see him again. Those places are deadly, Andi.”

“An intern camp? Oh, George, I never thought that something like that existed, not on Earth.” Her voice rose, becoming shrill. “Things like this just don’t happen, not here, not now! This isn’t the twenty-first century. They can’t just come in and take a man away like…”

One hand went to her mouth, stifling whatever she had been going to say. She shook her head and closed her eyes. George didn’t argue. He just nodded in sad agreement, and they both sat in silence for a long time.

Even after four world wars and two interplanetary ones, many people had no idea what happened to alien nationals during wartime, and many didn’t want to know. There were four internment camps, and only the Federation Marshals knew where they were. George had had the misfortune to be a guard at a camp during an earlier war. The memory of the things he had seen made him take refuge in the Valley when his enlistment was over. It had been years before he ventured from its safety again.

How could he help Tran? He was just an old Navajo. Though chosen hataalii to his people, to those Outside, he was simply an anachronism…like the Naturals themselves. What could he possibly do?

With sudden surprise, he knew. It had been hovering in his mind since he heard of Tran’s arrest, but would Andi accept it? Did he want her to accept it? He looked over at her.

“Andi, if Tran is in one of those camps, I…may…know someone who can help you. He could find out which one so you’d know who to get in touch with.”

He tried to sound optimistic, and failed, his own doubt preventing him. It didn’t matter who she wrote or went to see. The UTF didn’t give up political prisoners, but at least it would keep her from feeling so helpless.

“Who?” She looked up eagerly.

“Sinbad.”

“S-Sinbad?” An uncertain smile hovered at the corners of her mouth, as if he’d made a joke she didn’t quite understand. She stared at him. “But that’s just a fairytale. A story you used to tell me when I was little. Sinbad isn’t a real person.”

“Oh, this one’s real enough,” George assured her. “He’s Felidan, a smuggler--has his headquarters in Old Town.”

“George! Where did you meet a smuggler?” Her smile was real this time. “Is there a side to you we don’t know about?”

He shook his head and returned her smile. “Some of the natives of Felida have the Eyes-that-Seek-the-Spirit. When I heard there was a Felidan in Old Town, I went to see if he had the gift. It would've been a great help to me in ministering to our people.”

“Did he?”

“No.” He shook his head again. “He’s a half-breed. His genetic heritage had diluted what little ability there was, but we kept in touch. I patched him up a couple of times when he got too close to the Coast Guard and needed a medic who'd keep quiet.” At Andi’s disapproving reaction to this statement, he shrugged and tried to look nonchalant. “In a way, he’s a friend.”

She was thoroughly attentive now. “And you think this…Sinbad…could help me? Why would he?”

“He was in a prison camp once. If he can do anything to thwart the UTF, he will. He…”

The teakettle’s high, shrill whistle was a welcome interruption. George stood up and quickly poured water into two cups, adding spoonfuls of herb tea and sweetener. Then, he brought the cups to the table with a flourish.

“Here you are, blackberry tea with honey. Just the way you like it.”

Andi took the cup, sipping slowly, savoring the taste. When she was small and something went wrong—whether it was a skinned knee or bad grades in school—George always made it better with blackberry tea.

“You’re so good to me, George. I think you’re the best friend I have.”

He looked down at his cup. Praise always discomfited George. He stirred his tea with great attention. Andi took another sip. She looked better, he thought. There was more life in her eyes…and hope, too, but he was sorry his words had put it there. Abruptly, she set down her cup.

“Where can I find this Sinbad?”

George continued to stir his tea. Now, he was having second thoughts. It was dangerous to seek out a known criminal, especially for the purposes of obtaining classified information. He was urging Andi toward treason, and if she were caught--

“George?”

“I heard you. Uh--just forget what I said.”

“Forget it?” She looked surprised. “But, George, if he can help…I mean, you said he doesn’t like the Federation…”

Her voice trailed away at the look of concern he turned toward her.

“He doesn’t. But he dislikes Terrans even more.” He reached across the table and placed a hand over hers. “He’s dangerous, Andi. He’s a criminal, and…I-I’m sorry I mentioned it. I don’t want you to have anything to do with Sinbad sh’en Singh.”

Gently, she withdrew her hand from beneath his. He knew by the stubborn tilt of her chin that she’d made up her mind, and nothing he could say or do would change it. George’s heart sank.

“Where can I find him, George?” she asked quietly.

***

Andi paused at the swinging doors of the Asteroid Cantina. The building was a little better-looking than those surrounding it. At least, it had recently had a fresh coat of paint. From inside came the sounds of voices raised in laughter, a faint smattering of music, and the clinking of glasses.

Shifting her pack to the other shoulder, she placed one hand on the weather-beaten synthetic planking. Everything a Natural might need when away from the Valley was in that pack: money, a medicine bag filled with herbals to treat everything from headache to snakebite, and her identification card. She was never without the pack, and though there were no weapons inside, just having it with her made her feel safer.

“Go to the Blue Owl CafĂ©,” George had told her, reluctantly. “If Sinbad isn’t there, the bartender can tell you where to find him. And, please, be careful.”

The bartender at the Blue Owl had directed her to the Asteroid Cantina with even more hesitation, and an ominous warning.

“Sinbad doesn‘t like Terrans, especially the women. He‘ll eat a little thing like you alive.”

At that, a blue-haired Abydian socializer sitting at the bar looked Andi up and down with heavily-painted eyes and snickered into her red beer.

"Be interesting to see how much is left of her after he gets through."

"Shut up, Saydee!" The bartender went back to polishing his glasses, shaking his head.

Andi would have been startled if she could have heard his thoughts.

She's such a pretty little thing. A lady, a real lady. What does a woman like this want with that Felidan smuggler?

Now, thinking about the bartender’s warning, Andi looked around quickly. This wasn’t a place she’d like to be in late at night. She knew very little about Felidans—not even what they looked like—except that, 35 years before, their planet and Earth had been at war. The history books had generously said that the Felidans were ferocious fighters, but Terra cleverly brought the war into the Solar Sector where they were able to recuperate on the worlds of the Federation while the enemy forces, far from home, had no allies to aid them. In spite of this, they fought 11 bloody years before surrendering.

The Federation showed no mercy to its conquered enemies. All the adult males of the Royal House, and its commanding officers, were arrested and brought before a military court. Some were executed, some sentenced to life in military prisons scattered throughout the System. No occupying troops came to Felida, the planet was quarantined from outside communication as part of its punishment.

Bereft of their ruling family, the clans were in chaos, when the Pride chiefs stepped in. Within eight years, negotiations with their conquerors brought about the reinstating of a Felidan leader to the throne—though he was to remain a Terran figurehead for 10 more years—and the release and pardon of all the surviving members of the Warrior caste.

And now, she was on her way to meet one of those men. Andi wondered if Sinbad had been an officer in the Felidan Pride. Though the idea of facing someone who had been a war-leader frightened her, it never occurred to her to abandon her plan. For Tran’s sake, she had to do what she could, even going into the Thieves’ Quarter at Old Town.

Come on, Andi! Faint heart never freed imprisoned husband.

Taking a deep breath, she pushed open the doors and stepped inside. The room was dark and crowded, and there was a bluish haze in the air, mingled with a sweet, smoky smell. Trying to breathe without coughing, she started toward the bar, only to find her way blocked as a man walked in front of her. Quickly, she stepped back.

“Excuse me.” She tried to go around him, but he got in her way again.

“What’s yer hurry?”

Andi looked up at him. His hair was long and clubbed at the nape of his neck, shipman’s-style, and he was wearing a uniform with a red insignia on the sleeve. She stiffened, then relaxed as she realized he was Merchant Marine…or at least, someone off a space freighter.

“I-I…I’m looking for someone.”

She clutched the strap of the pack tighter and looked past him as if trying to determine which, of all the smoke-blurred faces in the room was the one she wanted.

”Ain’t me, is it?” He raised his glass, swallowing loudly, and leaned toward her, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.

A wave of whiskey-smell floated over her.

“Not unless you’re Sinbad sh’en Singh,” she snapped, and was startled to see him blink and take a step backward.

“Sinbad! Well, if he’s the one yer looking fer, he’s here somewhere.” He jerked his head in the direction of the bar. “Jake can tell ya!”

He stepped aside, but as Andi brushed past him, he called after her, “Whaddaya want with that Felidan, anyway? Ain’t Terrans good enough fer ya?”

At the bar, she had to wait several minutes before the bartender came down to where she had wedged herself between two men, ignoring the curious looks they gave her as they moved aside.

“E-excuse me…Sir?” He looked over at her and stopped, waiting for her to continue. “I’m here to see Sinbad. The bartender at the Blue Owl sent me.”

Jake—if that’s who he was—gave her a long, assessing stare, combined with a little surprise, before nodding to a table at the far side of the room. Following his glance, Andi saw two figures, one standing, the other seated in the shadows. With a smile of thanks, she hurried to the corner, dodging people, skirting tables and chairs until she was near enough to hear what they were saying. The standing man was dressed in typical dockworker clothing: a black pea jacket, dark jeans.

“I’ll see ya at th’ shuttle dock tomorra, then.” The seated figure waved an acquiescent hand, as the other turned, nearly bumping into Andi who was standing behind him. "'Scuse me, Miss."

He stepped aside and hurried toward the swinging doors. Quickly, she came up to the table, putting her hands on the back of the chair the man had vacated.

Hosteen Sh’en Singh?”

“Who’s askin’?” questioned a gruff voice.

It was hoarse and raspy, as if he was recovering from a bad chest cold. If he was surprised by her use of the Navajo word for mister, he didn't show it.

“My name’s Andrea Talltrees,” she began. “Al at the Blue Owl sent me…”

“Yer a Milky, ain’t cha?”

She was too startled to be insulted by that belittling nickname, derived from the name of Terra's galaxy, the Milky Way.

“Well, yes, but what’s that…”

“Al knows I don’t like Earthers. Sorry, Sweets, ya won’t do.”

“I-I won’t?”

Do for what? she wondered, feeling she’d doubly been insulted, and not really knowing why. He leaned back in the chair, tilting it against the wall, so that his upper body was hidden in the shadows, one knee-high boot braced against the side of the other chair. In the half light, she saw that he was wearing black leather trousers and a leather vest secured at the waist and neck with straps adorned with polished studs. His arms were bare, one hooked over the back of the chair, while the other rested against the tabletop, hands encased in short, black gloves. In the hollow of one shoulder, she could see a scarlet slash of a tattoo. There was a generous amount of bare chest and curly, coppery hair showing in the open front of the vest and Andi glanced away, studiously trying not to stare. Before she could say anything more, he reached into the pocket of the vest and produced a coin, flipping it across the table.

“Here’s an Eagle fer yer trouble.” It spun around and came to rest near the edge of the table as the other hand waved imperiously. “Now, go away.” Andi stared at the coin. It was a gold piece, very old, with a flying bird engraved on one side. She’d never seen one like it. “Go back to Al,” the deep voice went on, “an’ tell him I want an Androsan.”

Picking up the coin, she leaned forward, and taking one of his hands, carefully placed the Eagle on his palm, and closed the gloved fingers around it.

“I don’t want your money. I came here to talk to you and I’d appreciate it if you’d listen to what I have to say.”

The hand opened. He looked at the coin, then at her, and returned it to his pocket.

“By all means. Go ahead.” There was a hint of laughter behind the roughness.

She looked around. “I-is there somewhere we can talk…in private?”

The hand gestured. “Step into m’ office, li’l lady.”

“Talltrees,” she told him quietly. “Andrea Talltrees.”

“Mistress Talltrees.” The shadowy head nodded, as if accepting her correction. “An’ speak yer piece.”

Andi didn’t answer. Suddenly it seemed very warm, the smoke from the fuel lamps on each table combining with the body heat of the customers to make the room an uncomfortable contrast to the coolness outside. She tugged open the top two buttons of her jacket, and stood there, uncertain how to begin.

“You said Al sent you?” he prompted, leaning forward to take a slender black stick out of a holder on the table.

He picked up the little petrocandle, a pseudo-relic of an earlier era serving as a centerpiece, and touched the tip of the stick to the tiny flame. For an instant, she had a glimpse of long tawny hair and thick copper brows. Then, the light faded as he replaced the lamp and settled back. A thick cloud of smoke was blown in her direction. She coughed slightly.

“I-Is that a cigar?”

She couldn’t keep the surprise out of her voice. He took it out of his mouth and looked at it. She could see the glowing tip reflected in his eyes and that made her uneasy.

“Why, so it is.” There was mock surprise in the rasp. “Chock full o’ nicotine, carcinogens, carbon particles, an’ God knows how many other nasty things.” He shook his head. “My, my.”

“But…but they’re illegal.”

Tobacco was on the List of Unlawful Substances issued by the Surgeon General, was Number One, in fact. She flapped at the smoke with one hand, trying to fan it away. She felt a little dizzy; the smell of tobacco, whisky, and burning oil from the candle was overpowering.

“Lady, I’m a smuggler.” The harsh voice was contemptuous. “I bring in fifty cases o’ these a week, an’ at eight hundred Credits a box, I can afford to let fifty real dollars’-worth go up in smoke.”

“But they’re bad for your health.” It came out before she realized it.

“Don’t you worry about m’ health, li’l lady.” The voice was impatient. “You say ya got business with me? Then hurry up an’ state it. I came here t’ do some serious drinkin’ an’ yer interferin’ with m’ plans.”

She peered into the dimness, trying to see his face. It was like looking at a shadow.

“Can’t we have a little more light? I can hardly see you.”

That brought a short growl of amusement. “So, you want t’ see me, do you? Jake!” The bartender looked in their direction. As did several others. “Bring a bigger lamp. Th’ li’l lady can’t see enough o’ me!”

There was a spout of laughter and a gabble of crude remarks as Jake, grinning broadly, hurried over with another lamp. He set it on the table, whisked away the smaller one, and Sinbad leaned forward, tilting the shade so that the brightness shone on his face like a spotlight.

“There! That better?”

Andi stared at him. Oh, my God. Sitting before her was a cat in human form. His hair, the wildest, curliest stuff she had ever seen, was past shoulder length, a lion’s mane tamed by a leather headband, falling around tapered ears tufted with auburn fur, like those of a lynx she had seen near the chicken pen one Spring. From one nearly non-existent lobe dangled a thick gold ring. Heavy brows hung over jade-green eyes watching her with scornful amusement, slit pupils widened because of the low light in the room. He had high cheekbones and a long straight nose, a coppery Mandarin mustache drooping over a mouth in which the smoking cigar rested.

“I think ya stared long enough.” One of the gloved hands flicked at the shade. “Either shut yer mouth an’ quit gapin’, or open it an’ tell me whatcha want.”

“Please, can’t we go somewhere else to talk?”

With a hiss, he stood up, six feet, eight inches of irritated Felidan, picking up the mug setting upon the table.

“Hey, Jake!” Looking down at her, he took the cigar out of his mouth. “Can I borrow one o’ yer rooms fer a while?”

“Sure! Take Number Three.”

“Bring me a pitcher, then.”

He stalked away from the table, leaving her to run to keep up with his long-legged stride while the men’s laughter burned her ears. He pushed open the door and went in. Andi followed, closing it behind her. The little room was furnished with a table, two chairs, and a small bed against one wall, covered with surprisingly white sheets. Sinbad dropped into one of the chairs and motioned her toward the other.

“All right, we’re private. Now talk.” When she didn’t answer, he demanded. “Why did Al send you?”

“Well, he didn’t…”

She dropped the pack into the chair. It was just as close here as in the outer room. She felt dizzy again.

“Then who in th’ name o’ God did? Is this some kinda joke?” He pushed back his chair, putting both feet on the table and stared at her, his scowl turning the heavy brows into a copper vee. “Listen, woman, I ain’t got much patience, an’ I’m fast losing what little I do have.”

With a deep breath, Andi said, in a rush, “George Windrider said you could help me,” and waited for his reaction.

“Indian George?” The harsh expression softened. “Well, what’s th’ problem George thinks I can fix?”

“I want you to find my husband. He’s…”

“I’m no tracer, lady. Ya need t’ go t’ th’ Federation’s Missing Persons Section fer that.”

“I can’t.” She leaned forward, hands on the table. “It’s the Federation who’s taken him. You see, he’s an Albegensi.”

“You sure know how t’ pick winners.” The cigar had gone out. He relit it from the lamp on the table, and leaned back to regard her, his green eyes speculative. In the bright light of Number Three, his pupils were narrow black crescents. “Don’t tell me, let me guess…since th’ whole world is afraid o’ th’ Big Bad Federation, an’ no one else’ll help, you want me t’ find out where they’re holdin’ him. Right?”

She was sweating. She nodded and wiped her forehead with one hand.

“As a member of a group that has—no doubt foolishly—engaged in a military action against Terra, he’s probably been taken t’ th’ Black Mountain Reservation.”

“Black Mountain? But there’s nothing in that region.”

“Yeah, that’s what everyone thinks. There’s an internment camp there, very secret—an’ very deadly. Few prisoners ever come back from Black Mountain.”

He seemed totally unconcerned of the effect his words might have on her.

“Can you help me?” she persisted, trying to keep the desperation out of her voice.

“Well, I could find out if he’s there. Is that all you want?” His tone indicated he considered her just short of insane to want to know where her husband was.

“Yes,” she assured him. “Just find out where Tran is, and I’ll do the rest.”

“Tran. That his name?”

She nodded. “Tran Day. He’s a farmer. He couldn’t possibly be a spy. The whole thing’s a stupid, stupid mistake.”

“They all say that,” he replied, unsympathetically.

He fell silent and Andi stood there, gripping the back of the chair, squeezing the wood so hard her fingers hurt, waiting for him to go on. The silence grew longer and quieter, until she wanted to scream. His nostrils crinkled as if he had scented something.

”Are you afraid o’ me?”

“Should I be?” She was, terribly, but she’d never tell him so.

“Maybe.” He fell quiet again, but just when she was ready to grab her pack and stalk out, he sat up, letting the legs of the chair strike the floor with a loud snap. “All right, I’ll do it, but it’ll cost.” The cigar, held in the gloved hand, pointed at her like a dagger, as the green eyes regarded her unwaveringly. “An’ I don’t think yer willin’ t’ pay th’ price.”

“How much?” she asked. “Tell me. I’ll pay it. I love my husband.”

“You might not love him that much.”

“I’ll do anything to free him.” She flung the words recklessly. “What do you want?”

The cigar stabbed at her again. “You.”

“What?” She hadn’t heard correctly. She couldn’t have. “W-what did you say?”

“Ya heard me. I want ya as m’ payment.” He blew a smoke ring into the air. “Yer good-looking’ fer a Milky. I like yer scent, even if ya have tried t’ hide it under that nauseatin’ perfume. Here’s m’ offer: stay with me tonight, an’ if I’m satisfied, I’ll find your mate fer ya.”

She stared at him, stunned into disbelief. This isn’t happening. This creature didn’t say that. He didn’t.

“Look on it as a business arrangement. Ya gimme me what I want, I give ya what ya want.” He spread his hands and shrugged. “What say?”

“Wait just a minute.“ She startled herself by saying exactly what she was thinking. “W-what’s to stop you from just kicking me out after you…get what you want?”

“Good point.” His look indicated he was surprised she had thought of it. “Okay, we do it, an’ good or bad, ya get th’ location o’ th’ camp. Fair?”

He leaned back again, studying the ash on the tip of his cigar before flicking it onto the floor. Waiting. Confident. Enjoying her indecision.

Andi’s thoughts were frantic. Was this what George was warning me about? Oh, God, Tran, I love you, but I can’t do that. Not even for you.

“Make up yer mind, Talltrees.” The raspy voice cut into her thoughts. “I ain’t got all day, an’ neither has yer mate.”

What am I going to do? He’s right. No one else is going to help me. They’re all too afraid. Besides, I wouldn’t even know where to start. Tran will never know. Her hands clenched into fists. I-I’ll just pretend it never happened. She forced her hands to relax, took a deep breath and tried to speak. She had to swallow twice before any sound would come out. Even then, it was a bare whisper.

“A-all right.”

“Good!” He stubbed the cigar into the ashtray on the table. “Well? Go ahead…strip.”

“What? Here? Now?”

He smiled, the light sparkling off long incisors, flashing a fanged leer. “Right. Here. Now. Th’ day ain‘t getting’ any younger, an’ there‘s an empty bed yonder just waitin’ t’ be used.”

Mouth set in a determined line, she took off her jacket and dropped it into the chair. The hand-knit sweater had four buttons at the neck. She got them open and pulled it over her head. Underneath, she wore a long-sleeved cotton shirt. As she began to open the dozen, tiny buttons down its front, frowning in concentration, he gave an exasperated growl.

“Good God! How many clothes’re ya wearin’? D’ ya think it’s winter?”

“It’s still cold in the Valley,” she answered defensively, watching her hands.

Don’t look at him. Don’t think about it. She got the shirt off and heard his groan as he saw the sleeveless undershirt. He was getting impatient, the gloved fingers tapping a loud tattoo on the tabletop. She was afraid he would walk out if she delayed any longer. Quickly, she pulled the tank top over her head and reached for the catch to her bandeau.

The door opened. Jake came in carrying a pitcher of beer, a blast of sound following him into the room. Gasping, Andi snatched at the undershirt and held it against her chest. Her chin quivered. Jake looked from her to Sinbad.

“Sorry, Sin. I-I didn’t think you’d be this far along.”

The smuggler tapped the table with one finger. “Put it there, Jake. Thanks. Now, get out.” There was barely controlled anger in the low voice. The bartender did as he was told and hurried toward the door. “An’ Jake--” He paused and looked back. “Make certain we’re not bothered again.”

“Right. I’ll put up the Do Not Disturb sign.” He went out, slamming the door.

With a shaky sigh, Andi dropped the undershirt. She was dizzy again, feeling the way she had the day her horse ran under a tree and she had hit her head on a limb: lightheaded…sick. There was a roaring in her ears.

“We’ve wasted enough time, woman.”

A gloved hand reached for her and Andi went limp, falling without a sound into a crumpled heap at the smuggler’s feet.

TITLE: The Adventures of Sinbad: Sinbad's Last Voyage

AUTHOR: Toni V. Sweeney

WEBSITE ADDRESS: www.tonivsweeney.com

WHERE TO BUY: www.lulu.com

Sunday, September 2, 2007

CJ Maxx - Coming Back a Virgin (Rating PG-13)


Coming Back a Virgin is an erotic novel. Excerpts from Chapter 1 are posted here to maintain a PG-13 ratings.

COMING BACK A VIRGIN

Excerpts from Chapter 1


Walter Riggins moved the cursor to Send and clicked the left mouse button just as the doorbell rang. Frowning at the interruption, he walked to the front door and opened it.

A woman stood there in a black sequined dress; its most notable feature a mesh-covered cutout around the waist. The dress displayed her ample cleavage, accentuated her large breasts, small waist and prefect hips.

His mouth fell open as he stared at her.

She looked at him, frowned, and said, “Move, Walter!” and she pushed by him to enter his apartment.

Startled, he turned and continued to stare at her. “Who are you?” he stammered.

She ignored him and continued to look around his living room. What a mess! The residue of numerous fast food meals was everywhere. Piles of books and magazines had fallen from] the coffee table and the entertainment center onto the adjacent floor. The rug hadn’t been vacuumed in months. A thick layer of dust coated the untouched flat surfaces of his furniture.

“Clear off a chair, Walter. I want to sit down,” she demanded.

He quickly moved to his best chair and swept the pizza box and empty soda cans to the floor. “Here, sit down.”

“Thank you.”

Walter pushed aside the empty chip bags and dip containers then sat on the sofa “Now, who are you?”

“You know. I’m Lorraine .”

“I’m sorry. I don’t know any Lorraine . What’s your last name?”

She looked at the Playboy centerfolds on the walls. “Don’t know. You never gave me one.”

“What? What are you talking about?”

She gestured towards the glossy pinups. “What’s with the walls?’

He looked up at the centerfolds and grinned. “I didn’t have anything else to put up. Looks good for a bachelor pad, don’t you think?”

“No, I don’t,” Lorraine said. “It looks like some teenager’s idea of a bachelor pad.”

Not liking the rebuke, he asked again, “Who are you?”

“I’ve been in four of your books. I’m probably in the one you’re working on now.”

He studied her for a few seconds. “No. No you’re not. Lorraine ’s fictional—I made her up. I didn’t base her on you, whoever you are.”

“Oh, I’m not real. I’m the character in your books.”

Walter didn’t do drugs and rarely drank which made it hard to believe what he was hearing. “I’m sorry, I don’t recognize you. Even in the unlikely event one of my characters was sitting in this room, in that chair, I would recognize them. Don’t you think?”

“You know why you don’t recognize me?”

Walter hesitated. “No, I’m afraid I don’t. But you can’t be Lorraine , because—she’s not real.”

“You never describe my face, Walter. Not my hair, my eyes, my nose, nothing above the neck. The only time you mention my lips is--well, we won’t get into that. The only thing you describe is my body,...”

He stared at her, a stunned look on his face.

Lorraine stood and told him to do the same. “Come here!”

He moved warily toward her, stopping in front of her.

“Put your hand on my breast. No, both hands, both breasts, that’s what happens in your books.”

*****

Well, he didn’t take that too well, but it should convince him. She looked around while he lay there. I wonder if he has a girl friend? If he does, she doesn’t come here much.

Lorraine walked around the apartment and shook her head. No, no woman has been here. The bedroom floor was covered with dirty clothes. The nightstand was covered with cans and moldy cups. Yuck, men are such pigs. She couldn’t identify the original color of the bedsheets. They couldn’t be white. They must have been gray to start with. There was no discernable color to them now. My God, who would sleep in that? She carefully stepped over to the dresser and opened the drawers, one after another. They were all empty. Shaking her head she said aloud, “Well that doesn’t surprise me—it’s all on the floor.”

Walter was beginning to stir when she confronted the disaster in the kitchen. Dirty dishes were stacked on every possible surface. It looked like nothing had been washed for months and she doubted they could be cleaned now. She stared in amazement, wondering about his diet. Does he live on fast food?

She looked up as he walked in and stopped near the doorway, eyeing her suspiciously. “Okay, who are you? What are you?” he asked.

She smiled sweetly, “ Lorraine , I’m Lorraine .”

Walter couldn’t say her name. “Okay, what are you doing here?”

“I’ve come here to help you.”

“Help me?”

“Yep, that’s my mission. I don’t know what I got myself into though. What a mess.

You’re a mess, this place is a mess, your writing’s a mess, everything’s a mess. If I had known things were this bad I would have stayed up there.”

Walter didn’t understand. “Stayed up where?”

“Oh, up there, where we live, I don’t think it has a name.”

“You’re not talking about heaven, are you?”

“Oh no, heaven’s where God is, angels, Mother Teresa. No, not up there. I live with the other fictional characters.”

He sat and cleared away the remains of his last fast food meal from in front of him.
He put his elbows on the table and rested his head in his hands. “I need some coffee to wake up. I’m having a bad dream.”

Lorraine stared at the unknown substance growing in the carafe of his coffeemaker. “Not in this. You drink anything from this you’re going to die. If I were a Genie I’d get you some, but I’m not. You’ll have to go get it.”

He wearily got up from the table. “I’m going to get something to eat, too. You want something?”

“Nope, don’t eat. Go ahead, I’ll be here when you get back.”

He gave her a puzzled look, then turned and headed out the door.

Lorraine went into the bathroom where she found piles of moldy towels on the floor. She picked up a washcloth off the counter and saw it was stuck together. Oh God, she thought, I hope he’s not using this for what I think he is. She dropped it and opened the medicine cabinet. Surprisingly, it was neat. Cold medicines, aspirin, cough drops, Visine, box of band-aids, several tubes of KY Jelly. Hmm, wonder what the KY is for? Looking in the bathtub she could only shake her head. Disgusting.

Lorraine left the bathroom and headed into the living room. The mess had distracted her from the furniture when she first entered the apartment. Now she took a close look. He must be color-blind. This color scheme was a decorator’s nightmare. She stared in horror at the blue chair, an orange sofa, a black recliner, a colonial coffee table, and two modern chrome and glass end tables. She supposed it was the dĂ©cor of a bachelor pad. The centerpiece seemed to be the sixty–five inch High
Definition TV with surround sound. This is better than what we have up there. She picked up the remote and deftly hit the right buttons bringing up his favorite listings. Just what I thought, he has all the porno channels. She opened the cabinet and found a row of XXX rated videos. She shook her head. “He’s hopeless.”

The front door opened as she headed back to the kitchen. Walter came in carrying a bag from Subway, a container of coffee and two Cokes.

“You still here?” he asked, disappointment in his voice.

“Yes, unfortunately, my mission keeps me here.”

They went into the living room and sat down at the table, Walter pushed aside some litter and took his sandwich from the bag and unwrapped it. “Sure you don’t want anything, I’ll share.”

“No, don’t need food, or sleep, for that matter. I’ll just sit here and watch. Tell me, what do you do for a living?”

Thinking for a second, he said, “I’m an engineer, an electrical engineer. Work for a computer company.” Knowing he was an electronics technician, she wondered why he was lying. Probably trying to impress me, she thought. “That’s interesting,” she said. “Why don’t you live in a house instead of this place?”

He bit into the sandwich and gave the question a few seconds’ thought. “Houses have yards. More work. I need all my spare time for writing. That’s why this place is a little messy. I don’t spend much time keeping it clean.”

“I can see. So how’s your latest book?” she asked.

He smiled proud of himself. “At the publisher. Sent it off right before you rang the bell.”

Lorraine got up walked over to the computer, woke it and quickly found the outgoing e-mail. Spending a minute or so, she wrote an e-mail and sent it to his publisher. Then she made a few more keystrokes and returned to the table.

“What’d you just do?” he asked.

“It’s coming back. That book doesn’t leave here until I’m satisfied with it.”

“What, you can’t do that?”

“Oh, I just did,” she said with a slight smile

Walter was exasperated. “What do you want?”

“Just want to make you a better writer. You have some problems. How many times were you turned down on your first book?”

“I don’t know, about ten, I guess.”

“Twenty-three! The only feedback you received was one cryptic note on a rejection slip, ‘strong start; went off the cliff’.”

He finished his sandwich. “I never could figure out what that meant. Since then I found this publisher that likes my books. They’re happy to print them. I’ve got four published.”

Lorraine went over to his bookcase, and picked up Wild Time in Vegas. Pointing to the publisher, she said, “Walter, you pay for the printing. Your publisher is a vanity press. Don’t you understand the difference? You pay money, they print.
That’s the definition of vanity press. Mainline publishers pay you royalties for each book sold. No money upfront from you. Get it?”

He looked embarrassed and mumbled, “Yeah, I know. It just wasn’t worth the hassle. It was easier to pay to get it printed.”

“The Big Guy said you have potential. That’s one reason I’m here.”

“What?”

“The Big Guy was passing through Dallas and he found your book Love and Betrayal in a Fishing Village in the waiting area for his connecting flight. Probably a copy you gave to one of your friends. He likes sea stories so he picked it up. It was interesting, up to page eighteen. You know what happened on that page?”

He lowered his eyes and spoke quietly. “I think it was a sex scene with you.”

“A slut scene is more like it,” Lorraine said. “Let me quote what you wrote, I know them all by heart:”

****

Feeling foolish now, he said, “I don’t know, I thought it was clever.”

“That trashy writing is what got me here. He was impressed with you up to that point. Good beginning, effective hook, clear narrative, well written dialogue and strong characters. Something happened when you got to me.”

He picked up he book and glanced at the text. “If books are going to sell, they’ve got to have sex in them.”

“He wasn’t objecting to sex, he was objecting to your total inability to put sex on paper in any meaningful or entertaining way.”

“I don’t know what I did wrong,” he said defensively. “I thought it was pretty good.”

She frowned, “That’s the other reason I’m here. I’m known as the ‘slam, bam, not even a thank-you, ma’am’ character up there. It’s affecting my love life. The next sex scene you write with me in it will be romantic, not erotic. Do you have a girl friend, Walter?”

“Well, not right now,” he replied with a disgusted look on his face as he rubbed his head.

“You’re how old now, thirty-five? How many girl friends have you had, literally and figuratively?”

“Hey, I like that line,” he said, smiling. “I’ve got to remember it.”

“Answer the question!”

Again rubbing his head, he said, “Uh, well, not many, really. Uh, a few.”

“You have sex with any of them?”

“Yeah, two of them,” he replied, smiling now.

“Well, did they like it?”

“They sure did, said I was a stud!”

“Were they beating down your door to get more?”

He frowned. “Of course… well, no, we broke up after that.”

“Okay,” Lorraine said, “I see the problem. You’re not getting your sexual scenes from experience. Where are you getting them?”

“Well, I guess I get them from TV. I watch a lot of TV when I’m not writing.”

“What kind of TV shows were you watching when you dreamed me up?”

“I guess it was a combination of shows, I don’t remember any particular one.” He appeared embarrassed.

“Well, I can guess. How about ‘Horny Housewives’, or maybe ‘Sluts on the Loose’, something along those lines?”

“I’m kind of embarrassed to say this, but it was probably from some X-Rated movie.”

“Twenty-two people in your first four books, Walter. That’s the count. I wonder how many in your latest book. You’ve made me out to be the biggest slut in the world. I can’t get a boyfriend up there.”

“You can have boyfriends up there?”

She ignored his question. “And another thing. Your darling little Samantha, that sweet little teenager I’m always seducing? Well, I’m not a lesbian and she’s not a lesbian. She wanted to come down here to smack you. Papa H. wouldn’t let her.”

“Papa H.?”

“Yeah, the Big Guy.”

Taken aback somewhat, he asked, “Hemingway, Ernest Hemingway is the Big Guy?”

“Yeah. Samantha’s got something going with him. They’re always in his office.”

“The Big Guy is Ernest Hemingway!” he exclaimed. “I can’t believe it.”

“He got elected or something. He’s the boss.”

“He liked my writing. Wow, I’ve got talent, I can’t believe it, Hemingway.”

“Calm down. You being selected was a fluke, you’re the first vanity press writer that’s ever got a visit. After my report, probably the last, too.”

“I still can’t get over him thinking I’ve got talent. Wow!”

“Well, get over it. You’ve got problems to fix before anything else happens.”

The revelation made him giddy. “Okay, Lorraine , start helping me.”

“Let me explain something to you. Your idea of sexual situations is more suited for Penthouse or one of the Hounds of Hell magazines. Your stories require romantic settings and scenes that lead to sex. Not this garbage you write: ‘A fish sucking in the bait’. I still can’t get over that one.”

“Okay, I see your point. Let’s get started.”

“The scene, Walter. That’s what we fix first. Know what setting the scene means?”

“We go to a motel? My bedroom? I need to change the sheets, what?”

“This pigsty you live in. That’s the scene.”

“Can’t you just blink your eyes or something and clean it up?”

She stood and pulled him up by the hand. “Let’s look around the living room here.
First the good news, the ceiling’s okay—now the bad news, everything else sucks. The pictures go. The walls need painting—a neutral color, please, not this green. You need matching furniture. The carpet needs shampooing. Probably better to replace it.”

Looking hurt, he said, “All that?”

“Yes, if you’re going to bring me to your place for romance, this room starts the process. I’ve got to feel comfortable, amiable, wanting to see where this goes. Get it?”

A small speck of light began to form in his brain. “I think so. This sets the mood, your mood, right?”

Lorraine took him by the hand, squeezed it, and led him into the kitchen. “How do you think this should look if I happen to wander in here?”

“Like something out of Good Housekeeping?”

“Exactly. Let’s go to the next room.”

Entering the bathroom, she said, “You were in the service, right?”

“Damn right, I was a Marine.”

“Good. You’ll understand what I’m saying. This place must be spotless, remember what the Drill Sergeant said about eating off the floor?”

Snapping to attention, he yelled, “YES, DRILL SERGEANT!”

She smiled at his response and they headed into the bedroom. “You couldn’t get a twenty dollar hooker to come in here. You know that?”

He shook his head. “You’re right, this is pretty bad.”

She picked up a corner of the bottom sheet with two fingers, paused, and pulled it off the bed. “I don’t see how you can sleep on this.” She tossed it aside. “Well, at least the mattress is clean, you won’t have to replace it.”

Frowning, he said, “I don’t know about this. This sure seems like a lot of work for a piece of…”

Lorraine cut him off, “A lot of work to make you a successful writer, you’re right.”
He had has doubts. “I don’t know.”

She smiled. “The Big Guy thinks you have talent, remember?”

“You’re right. I’ve got to do this, this is my shot at making the big time.”

“It’s after eleven, you’ve got to work tomorrow. Go to bed, I’ll see you in the morning.”

“Where are you going to sleep?”

“I don’t sleep, remember? I might clean up a bit, probably watch some movies, read some.”

She smiled and vanished, reappearing in the living room.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Judi Moreo Author of You Are More Than Enough

Join motivational speaker Judi Moreo, author of the self-help and motivational book, You Are More Than Enough: Every Woman's Guide to Purpose, Passion, and Power, as she virtually tours the blogosphere in July on her first virtual book tour! Judi Moreo is a leading authority in the areas of communication and motivation. She has conducted consulting assignments, training workshops, seminars and keynote speeches in 26 countries on 4 continents. She has coached countless business leaders worldwide on issues of corporate change, cultural diversity and conflict management.

This is the first chapter of her book -

Realize who you are.

“No man can know where he is going unless he knows exactly where he has been and exactly how he has arrived at his present place.” Maya Angelou Poet, Educator, Historian.

Why is it that having confidence in ourselves and our abilities is so hard? Why do many of us have the tendency to over estimate other people's abilities and power and under estimate our own? Why are we so concerned with what other people will think about us?

If we are to understand these things, we need to understand first why we think, feel and act the way we do. We need to understand why and how we have become who we are as well as why we react or respond in certain ways. When we understand ourselves, we can either accept the way we are or make changes so we will be able to accept ourselves.

What we believe and accept about ourselves determines our behavior and performance. These, in turn, create our results and our results affect our confidence levels.

We behave in accordance with our beliefs about ourselves. If we have self-limiting beliefs, we will have self-limiting behaviors. If we have self-empowering beliefs, we will have self-empowering behaviors. In other words, if you think you can, you can and if you think you can't, you can't. If you think you can, you will find a way. We perform as well as we believe we are capable of performing.

Most of our beliefs about ourselves have come from outside sources: people, education and experiences. Many of us have allowed the opinions of others to become our opinions of ourselves. We've listened to people tell us we are incompetent, inadequate, unworthy, bad or stupid. We've internalized, processed and often believed what others have told us.

There is a direct correlation between the quality of your relationships and your levels of self-esteem and self-confidence. If you're like most people, how you feel about yourself, good or bad, is largely dependant upon the degree of acceptance you have felt from the influential people in your life.

In the beginning, we learned our beliefs and values from our parents. If our parents' self-esteem levels were low or they had poor concepts, values and beliefs, then that's what we learned. If they felt inferior, inadequate or unworthy, we probably adopted those qualities. When we are children, we go through an “imprint period” where we formulate our behavior patterns based on what is impressed upon our thought patterns by the adults who are instrumental in our growth.

If we were told “you are a bad girl”, it really meant our behavior was unacceptable, but most of us didn't hear it that way. We internalized it to mean that WE were unacceptable. Most parents don't realize how important it is to separate the act from the individual. Instead of saying, “You're usually so graceful…I'm surprised you tripped and fell. Are you okay?” they will say, “You're so clumsy!” They don't understand the deep, negative impact this has on a child.

If we were compared negatively to other children, especially children outside of our immediate family, we might have come to believe those children had more abilities and were more popular than we were. That is when feelings of inferiority start to set in. If we didn't receive appreciation or recognition for our achievements, we may believe others are smarter, stronger or better than we are.

If my grandmother told me once, she told me a hundred times that my cousin, Bobbie, was smarter, cuter and more popular than I was. After the first 10 times, she really didn't have to tell me any more. I already believed it! So if Bobbie took dance classes, I didn't want to take dance classes because I knew before I started I would never be as good as she was. If Bobbie tried out for a part in the school play, I wouldn't try out because I could never be as good as Bobbie. If Bobbie ran for student council, I certainly wouldn't be able to achieve what she achieved, so why bother? I knew for sure I'd never be Homecoming Queen, because Bobbie had already worn that crown.

If we had parents who tried to realize their unfulfilled dreams through us and our accomplishments, they may have pushed us beyond our abilities or our desires in particular areas making us feel “less than” we could have been or should have been. Or maybe they even instilled such a drive in us to be what they wanted us to be, that we didn't learn how to be assertive and stand up for what WE want.

My friend, Sue, didn't want to play softball, but her father was the girl's softball coach and a jock to boot, so he insisted Sue become a pitcher and a home run hitter. He pushed and pushed until she was in tears after every game and she quit before the end of the season! When she was in Girl Scouts and they went on a hike, Sue somehow wandered away from the others and became lost. Once found, her father said to her, “Don't tell anyone you couldn't find your way out of the woods.” When they would go fishing, he would say to her before they ever got to the dock, “I know you are going to be sick, so just deal with it!” Today Sue works at a job she doesn't really enjoy because she still hopes to win her father's approval and when she faces challenges in life, she sometimes cries, has a tendency to get sick, often quits things before learning to do them well and most of all tries to “just deal with it.” In other instances, she takes on risky assignments in an attempt to get her father to see how brave and strong she has become! Occasionally, I hear her reference how well she has done for a girl who can't find her way out of the woods. Is it as obvious to you as it is to me where these coping mechanisms were learned? And isn't it sad that her father's early harsh criticism has stayed with her all of her life?

If our parents or peers are obsessed with physical appearance, they may also push us into a life that devalues us. Jeanette was a beautiful teenager. Her parents pushed her into every beauty contest they could find. They were determined because she was so beautiful; she should have only the best of everything. They moved to the most exclusive neighborhood in the city, so she could go to the right school with a “higher class” of students. They joined the country club at great expense so she could mingle with the “right” people. Then they worked around the clock to pay for it. When she had the opportunity to meet young men, her mother would say, “Stand up and meet the boy.” So Jeanette would stand up, stick out her breasts, suck in her stomach and put on her most seductive smile, so the boy could look her over and see what a good catch she would be. She married the man they chose for her who didn't appreciate her “standing up” to meet all his friends and business associates. She lived a miserable life until she got divorced. Then she found herself back in the limelight standing up for the “right” men to meet her again. Unfortunately, as she grew older, her looks faded and she was no longer the beauty she had been. Because she relied completely on her beauty, she never developed any of the other interests, virtues or qualities one might seek in a mate. She died bitter and alone -- surrounded by her beauty pageant trophies.

Children of parents who are obsessed with physical appearance usually develop a major case of low self-esteem. In addition, the media puts so much emphasis on beauty and being thin that many girls, and even supposedly intelligent grown women, develop eating disorders and poor health in an effort to keep up their appearances.

If our parents placed a very high value on possessions and having money in the bank, whether they had it or not, the emphasis on materialism we learned could lead us to a life of overachievement and striving for wealth and material goods. We may even marry someone because of the possessions, wealth or stature of that person.

Mary's occupation is marrying wealthy men. I say “men” because she has married four men of considerable means and found out after each wedding ceremony that she didn't even like the person. Eventually each “wonderful” marriage ended up in a bitter, nasty divorce. How many of these do you think she'll go through before she realizes what she is doing? My father used to say,
“If you marry someone, be sure you like the person and you can love him even if he loses everything he has, because that's the person you'll be stuck with.” Times have changed since my father's day, and in today's world where two out of three marriages end in divorce, you no longer need to stay stuck in a bad relationship.

You can get a divorce without the stigma it carried in my father's time, but why would you want to put yourself through all that turmoil and emotional drama? It's certainly hard on one's self-esteem. We shouldn't use up even one moment of our lives dealing with negative emotional feelings that we can avoid by making better choices in the first place.

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Sunday, August 26, 2007

CJ Maxx - In The Arms of a Warrior


Excerpt from In The Arms of a Warrior by CJ Maxx

Susan Ambrose walked into the Design Engineering Department and stopped in front of the admin assistant’s desk. She stared at Mary Jane Winter’s provocative black jumpsuit and a smile slowly formed on her face. "What? You were out partying last night and didn’t have time to go home and change?"

"You don’t remember, do you?" MJ asked. "The new guy starts today."

Susan chuckled, "Oh no! How could I forget? How could I come in here dressed like a bag lady?"

MJ smiled, "Hey, this guy is single, twenty-eight years old, and from what I hear, good looking! I’m going to dazzle him when he gets here. Once the boss is done with him, he’ll be spending time with me. He’s going to think he went to heaven and I’m one of the angels."

"Angel? I don’t think so. Devil in the black jumpsuit is more descriptive."

She wrinkled her nose at Susan, "You may not care about your first impression, but I do, I’m not getting any younger."

"If you’re dressed like that, I wonder what the desperate duo are wearing? It’ll be like a fashion show around here for the next week." The two female design engineers, Cassie Hunter and Katherine Gillian, practically threw themselves at any unmarried man. Susan shook her head and said, "The poor guy doesn’t know what he’s getting into, this is like ‘Desperate Women in the Work Place’. It could be a TV show."

"You’re not getting any younger either, you know. What are you, thirty now?"

Susan faked a hurt look. "Hey, I don’t see the big 3-0 for two more years."

MJ laughed. "Anyway, one bad marriage shouldn’t turn you against men forever. It’s been three years now, you should be over that jerk."

Susan stepped over to her distribution box, took out the contents and glanced through the documents. As she turned to leave, she said, "Oh, I’m over him. I’m just waiting for Mister Right to come along."

"Those guys on the white horses are all gone; you’ve got to start sorting through those Mister Maybes looking for Mister Almost Right."

"I’m sure you’ll give me a full report on your first encounter with Mr. David Wilson," Susan said as she walked to her office.

MJ smiled, "I’ll be in your office as soon as I escort him to Human Resources."

The man approaching MJ’s desk was tall, maybe 6’1", about 200 pounds or so. His off the rack suit didn’t hide the fact that he spent time in the gym. His broad chest and slim waist made him look like an athlete.

He stopped in front of her desk and said, "I’m here to see Tony Holiday."

MJ looked into his eyes. They were jade green. "You must be David Wilson."

He nodded, "Yes, I am."

She stood and extended her hand, "Welcome, David, I’m Mary Jane Winters, the department Admin Assistant. Just call me MJ."

He shook her hand firmly before releasing it. Looking past her at the name on Tony’s door, he replied, "Nice to meet you, M.J. Is Tony in?"

He was as handsome as she’d heard from her friend at Grumman, his last place of employment.


Strong chin, gorgeous green eyes, dark brown hair and full sensual lips.

David was still looking at the door behind her, "Is he in?"

MJ put her hands on her waist and thrust out her chest, "Oh, I’m sorry. Yes, he’s expecting you. Go on in."

He didn’t respond, just walked to the door.

MJ watched him until he was in Tony’s office and out of sight.

As promised, MJ walked into Susan’s office twenty minutes after she escorted the new employee to HR.

"Damn," she said as she plopped down in Susan’s guest chair. "I don’t know about him. I spent fifteen minutes with him, just the two of us, and, I swear, he never once looked at my 38Ds. I had to hang around Purchasing after I dropped him off, just to let those guys leer. I needed a morale boost after him."

Susan sat back in her chair and laughed, "You know, he’s probably just not used to hussies coming on to him first thing at his new job."

"I’m not a hussy," MJ replied with a smile on her a face.

"No, of course not. You’re wearing this seductive cat suit, your boobs are about popping out, nipples almost showing, probably staring at his crotch the whole time. No, you’re not a hussy."

"I wasn’t staring at his crotch," MJ said, smiling, "But I did check out his ass when he went into

Tony’s office. Umm, nice, tight, I’d like to have both hands on it."

"Oh no, you’re not a hussy. I can tell by the lady-like way you talk."
MJ got up to leave. "You’re going to meet him this afternoon. I want a full report from you. Miss Iron Panties."

"Iron panties? Where did you come up with that?" Susan laughed. "I’ll give you a report. I’ll bet he’s just a guy who wants to do a good job." She was looking forward to meeting him. It was time to move on. MJ was right; she wasn’t getting any younger.

"He’s a guy. If he didn’t notice me, his interests are somewhere else and I’m not talking about work."

Susan shook her head at MJ and chuckled. "I’ll tell you what I think about him before the day’s over."


Saturday, July 28, 2007

HOW TO SUBMIT

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